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I want so badly to believe that there is truth
and love is real

he could be just what i needed.

there's just something about his smile.

thanks lm. i couldn't have done it without you. :)

Lw2234: hi nice to meet you
Lw2234: do you wanna have sex
Lw2234: sure
Lw2234: cool

ooh boy. I miss those nights up in Colby. ah!
__Measure in love

hockey game was wonderful.

well, I'm a wreck
I really can't explain it
but I hear the music
when i look at you

the hockey game last night was amazing.

Christy, please bring me; one dunkin donuts something, one lemon lime gatorade, and one salted pretzel. thank you.

I instant messaged Danny randomly today. I'm not sure why I did it, but I'm so glad I did. Me and him dated or whatever back in the day (6th & 7th grade) and after we broke up we were really good friends, if there was a word for better then best, I would use it right now. At the begining of last year we sort of lost contact, I regret that so much.
( our convo )
I loved the way things started comming back as soon as we started talking. Funny how things like that go & he knew this kid and like he told me too, I IMed this kid ( and it's )
funny how these things work.

Dear livejournal, I haven't forgot about you. I've just been keeping busy and I'm teatering between this being a good thing and a bad thing. I think I've kept myself busy enough to keep my mind off the usually troubles. At the same time I haven't had time for important things ( I haven't talked to Lyndsy in forever) At any rate, today is valentines day. hott? no. I truly believe valentines day is a waste of a perfectly good day. Just ruin it by drowning it in roses and love and chocolate. But maybe thats just me covering up the fact I have one one special to spend it with.

                                  I rock too fast for love.

But it truly is funny how I am sitting around doing nothing.

I haven't had much to say recently? unlike me.

( those honors passes are hott  )

____ things are gunna happen naturally

and I'm taking your advice & looking on the bright side, & balancing the whole thing.

( ..... )

I've got a good story.

 Lyndsy, Jake, Curt and I went to the new walmart in Epping. It was THE hottest thing ever. It was beastly. We ran around turning up the music sampler things as loud as they could go-- playing "the wheels on the bus" after that we searched for paint ballguns then rode mini bicycles until an old walmart lady yelled at us. We looked at electic wheel chairs, unfournatly we didn't have enough money to buy one. We ended up buying, ice cream, magic shell (the stuff that hardens on your ice cream!) chips, dip and soda. But ready for the BEST part?!? THEY HAVE SELF-SCAN THINGS! Yup, thats right, we got to scan all of stuff and then you put the money in the thing and it rocked.

And then we partyed it down at my house. Gotta keep it Nottingham style.

the end.

Just got home from Papa Gino's with Jackie. We needed some time to chill & she needed help studying for the french exam. Since I had already taken the test, I knew everything that was on it. So that was a help. I don't think she's upset with me anymore. Thank god, I can't deal with it when people are upset or mad at me. Ooh well, I think we are cool now? 

Oui, d'accord.

I don't have much to say. =)

so.

I heard Josh is going to ask Lyndsy out this weekend at the movies, and she is going to say 'yes'. Well... you know I really don't care-- if that's what makes them happy. They can't help who they like. I dosen't bother me. I don't like Josh anymore. There are so many nice guys at Dover. Why waste my time?

Even if I did care, if I did care, even if I was screaming, even if the tears were blurring my vision and running make-up down my face, even if I was squeezing my fists so tight they were turning purple, I'd keep it on the inside.

 I'd somehow manage to say, "I'm fine."

I always do.

Yesterday, I went to the boys indoor soccer game with Lyndsy. It was really weird seeing Josh again. I didn't talk to him. I didn't smile at him. I didn't look at him. He road in the car with Kyle, Lyndsy and I on the way home. That was the worst. I didn't say a word outloud. Secretly I was just wishing he'd fall down the stairs. I had to keep looking out the window becasue I started to cry. I wasn't crying becasue I still like him, becasue
 I don't ... only becasue I was pissed at the whole situation. I don't even know what to say.

so i'll walk the plank
and i'll jump with a smile
if i'm gonna go down
i'm gonna do it with style
and you won't see me surrender
you won't hear me confess
you've left me with nothing,
but I've worked with less.